I take your hate mail very very seriously.

Their emails will be in blue while mine are in black and white.

This next email was a very difficult for me to choose a make-believe picture for. I felt that it was an important story to share but the sender wanted to stay anonymous because he was still going through a fairly difficult time in his life.

Then (perhaps it was fate), I ran across some pictures of a gentleman who's modeling career is based on his goofy-assed resemblance to David Letterman... and a complete lack of dignity.

Anyhow (I'm talking too much) I just hope you're as moved by the following as I was.

Yo, I'd appreciate you taking your time to read this mail and I guess you don't have to reply if you don't want to, I just really needed to tell someone about the way I feel and you seem to have gone through the same phase I'm currently in...

See, I've been a Christian nearly my whole life now and I supposed I first got into it not because I really believed or because I was touched by God, but just because I was going through a pretty rough period in my life when I felt that everything was out of control and messed up and I might have even created a savior in my own mind out of the need to believe that everything would eventually turn out all right, that He was still in control, and basically just to hope. It's easy being a Christian. It's reassuring to know that someone's always looking out for you and believing in the total forgiveness and remission of sins and all that.

Church was always a place where I could find security and surround myself with people who I knew cared and wouldn't reject me. The gospel was exactly what I needed to hear in my loneliness and insecurity, that at least someone up there loves me and always looks out for me. I know it sounds totally pathetic but that s how it started.

I guess people who didn't know me well would have said I was a pretty strong Christian, or at least serious about all this god stuff, and all my peers were too, and basically my whole world was revolving around the church for a while.

Then earlier this year I began to feel increasingly empty and that all this wasn't enough. God didn't satisfy anymore and I blamed my self, my lack of faith my doubts.

I've always had my doubts about certain truths in the bible, about Noah's ark and the world being created in 7 days and evolution and all the things that never made any sense, scientifically. And whenever I asked these hard questions I got no answers and I was even told to just forget about it, stop questioning God and to just have faith. So I just pushed these doubts down and tried to ignore it for a while. But does God really demand and expect nothing short of sheep like behavior and blind faith? And I tried really hard to get back in with God, even fasting and praying but no answer. And still I held on and told myself that it wasn't a big problem, just a dry spell.

Then I went through a really bad time when I guess I basically lost myself, if you know what I mean. I was doing stupid dangerous unchristianly things, partly to spite god and partly just because all the following orders in church had made me incapable of thinking for myself, or thinking, for that matter. I'm not blaming the church, mind you, I blame myself for my own stupidity but I guess I just really needed to a vent, of sorts after being so repressed in church.

My self destructive behavior forced me to realize that I was lying to myself when I called my self a Christian because in my heart I really don't believe in Christ and I wonder of I ever did.

I spoke to my pastor a few months back and told her that I wanted out and I haven't been to church since. It was hard at first, lonely and it felt like a really bad breakup but really things have only gotten better since.

Sometimes I still get scared of dying and of hell and the possibility that I might just be damning myself. And It's tough, knowing that this decision I made has hurt so many people around me, I can't talk to my friends about this because I know that they'll all just reject the idea outright, and I used to get several calls a week from concerned church members who wonder what happened to me, and I really can't stand it, people looking at me and seeing me as a salvation number?

And now? I supposed I'm still somewhere in between, deciding what to do with myself (at least now the choice is mine!!) and I've been reading Stephen Hawking and Carl Sagan and trying to weigh the facts for myself. There's still a part of me that's kinda holding on to God, whether out of true faith or just neediness, and maybe I haven't given up on him and I might still go back to church someday but at least this time I'll know that I made the choice based on actual conviction and not just because I cant handle being responsible for myself.

So that's it. Thanks man for reading. After all the crap my devout Christian friends have given me it's just really nice to find out that there are people out there who at least think like I do.

Hugh K.

“it makes me feel sick that you would make a game out of it.”

That is not even amusing. God died on the cross to save you from your sins and it makes me feel sick that you would make a game out of it.

HuNNiBuNNi720@aol.com


“I do not find it funny when you insult me and every Christian like that”

Hey my name is Laurence and I am 14 years old, Can you please take that site down? I do not find it funny when you insult me and every Christian like that.. Do you know how much that hurts people?? please reply

Laurence Durr


Dear Laurence,

No, I will not take the site down. This is how I make my living! How would you like it if I came to your lemonade stand and told you that you're hurting people with your lemonade and to please shut down your stand because no one finds it funny?

You'd be pretty upset with me, wouldn't you be?

Now maybe you can see where I'm coming from.

Bob

“i guess a little more attatchment to reality wouldnt hurt you... damn i sound like my mother...”

whatever, your site is interesting but i question myself if it is really worth the effort to spend so much time on it... i mean the whole thing is kinda about you saying "fuck jesus" or dress jesus up... get lots of replies by angry folks and then getting thrilled by the whole thing trying to produce a picture of yourself superior to the ones insulting you... dont get me wrong some of the art or whatever is interesting (though i didnt like the jesus dress up) why i write this... dont know, i guess i feel somewhat disgusted by your psycho stuff; pushing all this too far up. it feels to me your whole life is based on it. i guess a little more attatchment to reality wouldnt hurt you... damn i sound like my mother but wtf...

greetz from germany
Hugo Petersen
givemestuff@gmx.de


Hey Hugo,

I find it amusing that you're telling me to get "a little more attachment to reality". Are you thinking I should stray away from the fantasy world of evolution and science and steer more towards the clear reality of Satan-dragons, baby gods and rainbow promises from Heaven?

For me personally, this project is worth all the effort because I am a freelance artist and exploiting Jesus is one of the ways I promote my services. Christ! He's my meal ticket! It's just a coincidence that it also happens to be the right thing to do. I never planned on being so superior to everyone, it just kind of played out that way.

And oddly, after reading your email I wondered if it was really worth your while to write it. You expressed a pretty noncommittal opinion, said nothing of your own beliefs and quite frankly came off sounding like your mother. I too found my own self somewhat disgusted by this. Sorta.

Bob

“DO YOU THINK YOUR SO CUTE AND FUNNY TO MAKE THAT? WELL HELLL NO YOUR STUPID AND NO ONE LIKES IT.. I HOPE JESUS GIVES U WHAT U DESERVE!”

OK LOOK
U HAVE SOME SERIOUS ISSUES MAKING A SITE LIKE THAT WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU YOU OBVIOUSLY DONT HAVE A MIND BECAUSE ANYONE WITH ANY COMMON SENSE WOULD KNOW THAT IS JUST BEYOUND WRONG DO YOU THINK YOUR SO CUTE AND FUNNY TO MAKE THAT? WELL HELLL NO YOUR STUPID AND NO ONE LIKES IT.. I HOPE JESUS GIVES U WHAT U DESERVE!

Jenny Metzger
jemmy8@go.com


Date: Tue, 23 Sep 2003 20:36:22
“I just found it fairly ammusing that when someone intellectualy argues against your website, you resort to ripping apart grammatical errors and there choice of semantics. ”

I don't give a shit about your opinions on "god". I could care less about what you think about any religions. This email isn't really an attempt to lecture you for whatever faith you do or don't have. I just found it fairly ammusing that when someone intellectualy argues against your website, you resort to ripping apart grammatical errors and there choice of semantics. As if to say those things suggest ones level of intellegence, rather then there knowledge. Your intellectual fall-outs are beyond apparent and you just...plainly suck:)

Any kind of debate on any subject would be exhausting if only for the fact that I'd have to work around your simplistic brain, and explain things more heavily then i should have to.

Patrick J. Daigle
crashnburn007@hotmail.com

Date: Tue, 23 Sep 2003 20:57:04
“I know you wont publish this. Or if you do, you'll make silly comments about my grammatical errors or some hilariously general insults about what demographic i fall under.”

Sorry i was so vague with the last email. I've actually gone through some more of your hate mail and have read the reactions. Your a bigger idiot then i thought. Not for distrusting the idea of god but just the simplistic level of your reactions. And the hilarity of it all is that in the same simplicity, your telling everyone else how simple they are.

But with something in particular, you state that it's wrong to assume your bad or immoral and such because of your views on figures reguarded as a universal leader. while i dont have any faith, nor do i believe much in a supreme messiah, most of our current laws..and laws of past.. and what many groups use as a moral starting point are learned behaviors based apon what was dictated wrong or right in the bible..or koran(spelling?) or whatever book that was put out by the "holy one". It might be wrong to assume that your disbelief in those beings would also sort of suggest a disbelieving in "God's" ideas as well. or thoughts of what is moral and what isn't..so i suppose that is bullshit. mostly because there has been a time separation in which you can make intellegent desitions into what you shouldn't or should do, instead of chasing blindly after the rules of some higher being.I'll give you that. But your forgetting just how stupid people are as a whole..and individualy. If your going to take there emails and rip them apart due to there simplicity and lack of thought every single time, in some showcase of what little brain power you have, you may as well give up.

Sadly your probably more intellegent then 90% of the people who are gonig to write in hate mail. So essentialy this entire section is some ego feeding pile of bullshit.

Patrick J. Daigle
crashnburn007@hotmail.com

PS. I know you wont publish this. Or if you do, you'll make silly comments about my grammatical errors or some hilariously general insults about what demographic i fall under. "der..yah..your 5 arent you? you cant spell very well" in any kind of show of intellegence or debate in person, id eat you up. However, im bored, so ill email you just the same. Even with you having the advantage of slow thinking. You can dwell on whatever it is you want to say in reply before stating it.

Date: Tue, 23 Sep 2003 21:04:58
“Psuedo Intellectual moron...”

Psuedo Intellectual moron looking for something new to say.

Patrick J. Daigle
crashnburn007@hotmail.com

Date: Tue, 23 Sep 2003 21:09:12
“you've taken something that would get others attention so you could rip there replies down all the while patting yourself on the back.”

psuedo intellectual moron looking for something new to say. You disgust me more so maybe then the idiots who blindly follow falsities written in old books.

Just because you use your site to feed your ego. The subject matter doesn't matter in the least. you've taken something that would get others attention so you could rip there replies down all the while patting yourself on the back. Just hanging around on you website has probably dropped my IQ a couple points.

Patrick J. Daigle
crashnburn007@hotmail.com



Date: Tue, 30 Sep 2003 15:48:32
“i basicly sent entire emails predicting your reply”

Subject: haha

Haha...
and yet...you still attacked my grammatical errors. That's beyond hilarity:)
i basicly sent entire emails predicting your reply, only to have you do it anyway. maybe...maybe your not more intellegent then 90% of your readers.

Patrick J. Daigle
crashnburn007@hotmail.com

Date: Tue, 30 Sep 2003 15:55:12
“You have to tell me how you get all that female attention you do.”

Subject: oh yah

that photo is pretty fucking accurate too:)
But no..really.
You have to tell me how you get all that female attention you do.
Besides being horridly ugly and being without any sort of proper brain function i...i miss your tactics. i cant see it. your going to have to enlighten me unto how that works

Patrick J. Daigle
crashnburn007@hotmail.com


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