|“Please don't post my messages, or talk about it with your strangers, including your Shaggy...”
Please don't post my messages, or talk about it with your strangers, including your Shaggy friend; I'd prefer to remain off the roster.
I'm ill and stuck in bed mostly, and have watched all of the Stranger videos. I think watching makes me feel iller, but I have some fascination, similar to seeing mosquitoe larvae swimming in a dirty puddle.
My general impression is that NYC must be heavily centered around cultures related to the performing arts. The strangers all share desires related to the spectacle. It seems obvious that many of the people you record from the steps are seeking you out, and putting on a show specifically because they're aware of the camera.
Even social characters supposedly with psychological problems, like Dusty, seem to me to be clearly acting. But it is a blend with their personality, where their act isn't entirely separate from their real persona. Which is partly why most of these people would be diagnosed with personality disorder.
It'd be interesting to go through the list of people and try to diagnose them to identify their specific motivations and dysfunctions.
But I hope you're open to critical analysis pointed at you too, because it looks like you're part of that same thing. Except, rather than being a trashy dysfunctional actor, you're the director. Rather than be the spectacle, you play the quieter top-down behind-the-lens kind of overseer who puts the show together.
It's a free public circus, and you claimed them as your freaks, to create a park of novelty and drama, that through the clearer defining of what already exists, you are able to brand in your name and essentially charge admission.
Except I looked at your numbers, and product, and you're at the level of the bums asking for change. Which makes it interesting, because you're kind of like a homeless director.
This gives you freedom, but what you do with that freedom is apparently build family with the mentally retarded and disorderly. Which makes your issue as interesting as theirs, because why would someone do that?
You apparently grew up in Christian land, so maybe when you were little there was tremendous desire to break out of that restricted lifestyle. Maybe that's where you developed appeal for "punk", and atheism. Maybe it is your own fetish, but you still haven't been able to free yourself completely, so you find comfort in watching others do it for you, where you can pretend to be "normal", when really you know you're nothing of the sort.
Maybe in Christian land you felt like the freak, because compared to them you were. Maybe that bothered you, so you moved into a garbage dump, where relative to them, you're Mother Theresa. But you're also freer to act out, and embrace your inner punk.
But you're an old man. Don't you want a functional family? Are you married? Children? Did you escape a heart break when you ran away to the island of the freaks? Maybe you suffer from something similar to Shaggy. He seems to have a developmental problem where he is rooted in the persona of a 12 year old, along with low intelligence that might classify as mild retardation. You seem smarter, and more like 16, but still, similar in that you're choosing to hang out in middle school for years.
It looks like maybe you started out with more documentation, and "freaking out squares", which you learned can bring income with the magnets. You need to do more than sell some magnets, and shocking the world with trash TV is another opportunity to get attention, which really shows that you yourself are in the business of the spectacle, just like them.
But after a while you seemed to get really integrated into the native culture and it became your family, possibly even a main source of love. In the process, you create drama that wouldn't exist, because you're living as savages who are part of a family.
Like with Zippy, he clearly admired Shaggy, and that attraction to the love of the park family had him talking crazy of wanting to throw his life away for this tribe.
I feel the whole situation is being neglected. The park should be a facility built for the mentally ill, where qualified people are cleaning them up and preventing things like tooth loss and infection. They shouldn't be brought to a hospital and released, they should all live there permanently. New York is really failing, in that they seem to leave wild wounded animals to infest the parks, only providing police to overlook.
One thing I can't figure out is this:
This gem I never really talked about on the site. It's moments like this that make me wonder if I'm the only one who totally appreciates what I do.
Describe what happens here to your buddy and he'll look at you funny and say, "You subscribed to that channel why?"
In my eyes however, it's a red ribbon.
It's a video of you apparently mocking the dog molester guy. Put that together with your Christian bashing, and chuckles when Shaggy puts others down, and I'm wondering if your main motivation is to attack people. Is what you're doing here to appreciate making fun of some guy where he sees it but doesn't get it or whatever and walks away? To communicate with the wildlife through hand gestures? Is your red ribbon that you chased him out? Put down a retard and declare victory? Surely you're not that stupid are you?
Maybe it has a lot to do with lust and love. Maybe the punk girl you fetishize is far more common there. Maybe the fleeting wins of catching the punk girl on camera, sometimes in states of undress, to have her coming to you confusing the attraction for the camera with attraction to you, opportunity to be close and interact with her, is worth much more than money to you. Maybe sometimes you have sex with them, maybe the masturbation material is enough, maybe you hold out on dreams one might bond with you.
Maybe you, like the rat in the hat, are under delusion that your production could be the next big thing.