in Hate Mail
of you may think that answering letters of hate isn't much of an
Well, today it was.
Pardon the length of this page but there's a lot that has to be
usual, their letters are in blue and
mine are in black and white.
C H I C A G O
vandal's assessment of the 24 hour music station scrawled on the
front door of the Real World house.
I'm here at The Grind Coffee Lounge ready to write, and there they
are. Cameras, microphones and MTV's Real World 2002.
case it isn't common knowledge to the rest of the world, MTV is
presently shooting its Real World series in Chicago (my home). Years
ago I would have savored this moment. The next "Puck"
could be hatching right before my eyes! But now, it is no longer
possible. The Real World is doomed.
3:30pm, the 25th of August and while I sit here drinking my coffee,
the token lesbian selection of the show is out and about, flirting,
cooing and having your normal all-eyes-on-you REAL moment
at The Grind.
are 4 girls on the sofa, here's the run down from left to right:
is a crew cut blond in a salmon bandana who likes to sit and stand
is a black girl who wears sunglasses indoors (as well as a bandana)
and clearly has the most attitude of the bunch. She's also a litterbug
and perhaps a peeping tom (as you'll see).
is a white girl in a blue bandana trying to be like the others pretending
to be gay. I bet she's the small-town-USA cast member.
is a butch cut Hispanic girl in a blue visor ( NOT a bandana!)
with little to say. What a show!
outside are peering through the windows hoping to catch a glimpse
of these lucky kids.
right now, I am just as bad as the rest. But my motives are different.
I wanna be on TV! No, no, no, just kidding (sort of). I just want
to see for myself. This could be the downfall of this unique, creative
neighborhood. Soon it will be exposed to planet Earth as the next
hip, wonderfully real place to reside.
watching these girls perform for the camera is so entertaining!
Everyone in here is pretending not to care. Jesus Christ, I think
that I just witnessed some staged drama. Girl #2 just stood and
walked across the shop, turned and shouted "I'll give
you some time to think about it!" then walked outside.
if there were no cameras around they'd still be a spectacle. Now
she's standing outside the window in front of me. No cameras followed
her? What if a "real" moment happens? She briefly attempts
to read what the green haired guy (me) is writing through the window,
throws her smoke to the ground and reenters the lime light. ...I
wonder how much I could get for that cigarette?
ways, back to my agenda. Save
papers have been reporting on the recent controversies surrounding
the Real World Chicago. Some of the more troublesome
locals of Wicker Park played a prank on the cast. They distributed
fliers and posted signs: "EXTRAS NEEDED!
ATTEND PARTY AT REAL WORLD HOUSE! FREE BEER!"
people showed up for the non existent party. This led to protests,
police and picketing.
paint was splattered on their front door, and someone wrote on the
I AM NOT AN ACTOR IN MY NEIGHBORHOOD.
THE REAL CURB."
was even a murder
outside the Real World house that was supposedly
caught by their cameras. That's the kind of "special neighborhood"
I'm talking about people.
a quarter 'til 4 and the soon-to-be female heartthrobs (and their
film crew) have left the building. Minutes later a quarter of the
clientele filter out as well. Sorry folks, maybe next time.
am still here and it is apparent that the shop has semi-permanently
stationed lights and equipment for the Real World's regular visits.
businesses in the area aren't even allowing the show in their buildings,
posting signs that say
"NO MTV REAL WORLD SHOOTING IN THIS ESTABLISHMENT"
can already see it happening. Wicker Park has always been home to
a variety of cultures, artists and a present day version of punk
rock attitude. This is where I fell in love some 6 years ago...
oh Julie. And when there were Crisis
games to sell we sold them here at Quimby's
Queer Store. And Urbus Orbis, Chicago's first coffee
house has been gutted and is
now home to MTV's Real World. Things do change.
lost interest in the show by the time they made them "manage"
"their own" "business".
was reason enough to keep coming back. There was the Hulk-Hogan-loving
cowboy virgin, and Judd. Oh
Judd, will you ever find love?
there is no one.
probably be sucked into Chicago's version of T.R.W. Hopefully by
then everyone will have lost interest.
I'll come back to The Grind Coffee Lounge. Yes, I will try to eaves
drop on them if they grace us with their presence again. And yes,
I will report back here with any more useless gossip I overhear.
Got a problem with that?!?
It's my city, not theirs!
it's pouring rain.
Back to the hate mail.
only hope that you are hung the same way and scorned
and made fun of and that you go straight to hell."
are one sick puppy. i can't believe you would degrade and
mock someone like this. i undetstand that you might not
believe in him but he actually was a real person even if
you don't think hes a savior, he actually did live. to die
on a cross was something tragic and i can't believe you
would make fun of that. i only hope that you are hung the
same way and scorned and made fun of and that you go straight
Mandi, it's not
what you think! My page is only teasing Jesus about His crucifixion.
Like how you'd raz somebody who stepped in dog poo.
Besides, it was
so long ago, I'm sure He looks back and sees the humor in
it all. Hell, If I were to get hung on a cross, scorned, made
fun of, then (at your request) sent straight to Hell, I guarantee
you that 2000 years later I'd be shakin' my head and laughing
The eternal Hell follow-up would be the clincher! Ouch!
you know that he didn't hang there just for fun?"
are really funny boy! I'm sure that Jesus think its funny
too! Well, you have to take the consequences, not me. But,
by the way, did you know that he didn't hang there just
for fun? That was exactly your place to die. Shocked? Hopefully.
But I'm sure that one day you will realize that living without
him is shit! Maybe then its too late for you...
Jesus is only "shit" when that is all you have. If you have
no freedom to express yourself, if you only know love that's
adequate enough for story books caricatures and/or if all
that you know is Bible then yes, living without Jesus would
I understand that
you believe everything you've read in that book despite the
fact that they are quite simply words written by man. This
shall remain your struggle, not mine.
if you don't know what is on the other side of this
life he is the only one that can save you from Gods
wrath to come."
know Bob ... you really should think about what you are
doing here in this web site. Even if you don't know what
is on the other side of this life he is the only one that
can save you from Gods wrath to come. He cannot do it against
your own will. But he is waiting for you to ask him. It
is an act of your will to believe him. You know this life
will not last forever and wherever you are going will be
for ever and ever. Don't bite the hand that is trying to
save you. You know this is wrong. Let God heal your hurts.
Ask him into your heart and watch what he will do for you
today. Don't lead other people astray from him too. You
don't want to have any regrets in this life.
anybody you ever knew in the past that died ever come back
and tell you that they can come and go or do as they please?
"No" because they had no control over where they were going
or what they did when they got there except to trust the
Lord if he is their Savior. You need a Savior, which is
A Trumpet For Him ... Jesus Christ who died on the cross
for your sins and God rose him up on the third day and he
sits at the right and of the Father and ever lives to make
intercession for you because he loves you.
5:15.25] And that he died for all, that they which live
should not henceforth live unto themselves, but unto him
which died for them, and rose again.
5:6.9] For when we were yet without strength, in due time
Christ died for the ungodly.
15:4.12] And that he was buried, and that he rose again
the third day according to the scriptures:
10:12.19] But this man, after he had offered one sacrifice
for sins for ever, sat down on the right hand of God;
7:25.24] Wherefore he is able also to save them to the uttermost
that come unto God by him, seeing he ever liveth to make
intercession for them.
Friend In Christ,
have no idea how much thought I've put into what I'm doing
here on this web site. I will follow that up by telling you
that it looks to me like you haven't put much thought into
what you're doing. You use other people's words (all those
scriptures, yeesh!) AND you claim to know what is on the other
side. Don't lead people astray Darlene, you don't want to
have any regrets in this life.
That's quite a
Heaven you paint. No control over where you are going or what
you do. If there is ONE thing I'd imagine about Heaven, it'd
be that it was free. All happiness depends on freedom. This
controlled Heaven that you describe sounds horrendous. Like
a kind of paradise thought up by somebody who considers "life
damned by original sin" a gift.
The lack of communication
we have with the afterlife is further proof to me that there
is no afterlife. Somehow to you it proves that there is not
only an afterlife, but a savior.
You've sent me
many scriptures but they mean nothing to me. For once I'd
like someone to think about why they believe what they do
and tell me it in their own words instead.
blame Adam and Eve because God showed me that if I was
born are you were born instead and it had been Bob and
Darlene that we would have did the very same thing they
I know where you are at, I have been there and I really
want to help you. But you are not going to receive this
thinking by looking at the things that you see in this life.
Because these things are spiritual, the real you is a spiritual
being. You have to step out on believing that what Gods
word says is true even if you don't feel it, see it or understand
some things. God just ask us to believe him. It really is
a tangible knowledge. The natural mind can't perceive how
much God loves us. But with that in mind ask him to save
you ( from Gods wrath to come) to help you and don't let
pride get in the way. God wants to be your friend and a
person that you trust. I believe that you are searching
for truth and realty and God is the truth.
Adam and Eve listened to satan and disobeyed God in doing
what he asked them not to do, God took them from the place
where they walked and talked with him in fellowship everyday.
Because of that sin we are born into sin rather we know
it are not. Don't blame Adam and Eve because God showed
me that if I was born are you were born instead and it had
been Bob and Darlene that we would have did the very same
thing they did. So God saw an error and worked to fix it
and give us mercy. Not that God didn't know there would
be an error but he wanted us to see without him we cannot
make it. He still helped Adam and Eve afterwards but they
where spiritually dead to God. He looked for a pure and
obedient stewart through the ages. he used obedient servants
or stewerts like Noah, Moses, David etc. (these were obedient
blood lines) till Jesus ( God in the flesh) was born and
became our sacrificial lamb and bought us back with his
life for ours.
you study these peoples lives ... they are not perfect people,
they wer just like us, but when they did make a mistake
they were quick to confess it as sin as knowing that is
something that God did not approve of and ask God to forgive
them. Some things we do in ignorance and some thing's we
just out right do because we enjoy the pleasure of sin.
But it has pleasure for only a season of time. Then you
are under it's hold because God says that he will give you
over to what you find pleasure in and until you confess
it and forsake it and ask God to forgive you or it will
have it's hold till you die (then you die in sin). Have
you ever told a lie? have you ever stole? cheated? then
you have sinned against God. God is a jealous God. He wants
your love and you to depend on him only. Don't listen to
people that don't even know who God is. Those people are
lost till they ask Jesus to come in their heart. There is
so much you don't understand and I don't understand everything
ether. But understand this he gives us what we need in him
if we will seek him with all our heart and soul. He will
not leave you nor forsake you. That does not mean that our
lives are perfect but that it is saying that now you know
the source of your life and you have him backing you on
every turn to make it work out to your benefit.
can back up everything I have said to you by his word just
ask me. You will need it to stand on because the devil will
fight to keep you deceived and lied to because that is his
job. He does not want to lose another soul because his time
is short here. This is probably not the truth that you want
to hear but it is the fact and you have to know it because
this is a life and death matter. He is gong to be trying
to take your life now that you have this knowledge. He wants
your soul and he can have the soul that leaves this life
without repenting and asking Jesus in their heart. Don't
wait any longer.
just have to have a surrendered heart ... but Bob it is
your decision. God will not make you but he will reach out
to you and help and love you if you let him. I am praying
for you and if you need me to pray about anything that concerns
you I will ... let me know. The same God that walked with
Moses, Jacob, James and Paul is the same God that will walk
I suppose that
I have an issue you could address to your bitter, jealous
God. Before He annihilates us with His vengeful, bloodthirsty
wrath from above, could you have Him explain why I should
think He's got my best interests in mind? I mean, with all
of His super powers, unimaginable strength and absolute perfection,
shouldn't He be putting aside His fragile ego and taking more
of a leadership role for us?
bible is the only book that claims to be the word of
there are some things you need to really think about and
I am going to just give you a few here ... God is Lord alone
there is no other. The bible is the only book that claims
to be the word of God. God created everything the trees,
blue sky, beautiful flowers, oceans, he hung the sun, the
moon and stars, he keeps the balance of nature. God created
mankind as male and female. When a male and a female come
together in sexual union, an eternal human being, in the
image of God, is reproduced. There is no such thing as safe
sex outside of marriage it is a holy union unto the Lord.
The devil rebelled against God and is trying to deceive
mankind into following him in rebellion. The devils great
plan is to make people believe he does not exist then he
can entice you to sin and make it look like you decided
it and came up with the Idea. Because he knows you have
been given back your authority by Jesus he also knows that
you alone will bare it because we are freewill agents. (the
bible says that he is clever) Your ancestors, Adam and Eve,
sold you into slavery to the devil, through spiritual death
which came on them when they rebelled against God.
human being born into the world partakes of this sin. We
all have sinned and fallen short of God's standard. All
creation has suffered because of this rebellion: death,
wars, famine, this was not Gods plan. You will die someday.
After you die you will be judged by God. You are now under
the devil's dominion, and will share his judgment, unless
you receive and acknowledge the Lord Jesus Christ. Jesus
died as your substitute because God loves you. So, you can
receive what Jesus Christ deserves, instead of what you
deserve, if you accept Him! Unless you receive God's gift
of eternal life which is in Jesus Christ you will go to
a place of suffering after you die, which was created for
the devil. (this place was not created for human spirits)
If you call on Jesus Christ now, He will hear you, receive
you, forgive you, and give you a new life no matter what
you have done. You are unique and important to God. God
loves you more than He loves Himself! God has a blueprint
plan already made out for your life, and you will never
be happy unless you follow it. Jesus Christ is Lord and
God, and one day you will acknowledge that -- surrender
your heart now Bob. Reach out to him by faith believing
that he will do what he promised because his word says that
whosoever shall call on the name of the Lord shall be saved.
You may feel like you are stepping out and not sure he will
answer ... but that is faith and God honors faith. The Bible
is God's message to mankind. Read it -- especially the New
I really do care about your soul and I want you to know
that I am your friend! We are Gods vehicles on the earth
and he bought back our dominion through Jesus Christ and
unless we pray he will stay his hand. God don't want puppets
he lets us make our choice to believe him.
Oh no Darlene,
you've got it all wrong! I have spent most of my life believing
in God (church, youth groups, fellowship, some private school,
the works). I believed everything that I was told, and it
made for a pretty great childhood... for about 12 years. After
that things didn't "flow" like they once did. It wasn't until
my 30th year in life that doubt began to sprout, and my own
search for the meaning of life began.
Things that God
hated (My artistic expression, music that doesn't praise Him,
nonconformists, sex without marriage, etc...) were all things
that I didn't consider evil. Forcing a belief in the impossible
was crippling me psychologically. God's plan was to limit
my creativity? Ideas are evil? Doubting is evil? If He cared
so much, why wouldn't He make it clearer to us? How did I
know that it wasn't all a lie?
So many questions
were unanswerable. And living life without answers blows.
When I considered the idea that He did not exist, things started
to make sense. Perfect sense. The hundreds (if not thousands)
of unanswered questions in Christianity, had answers without
it. Now, every question had an explanation. An explanation
that made sense. I now believe that that is how mankind is
meant to live life. In sense. Not faith. One consistently
works, the other does not.
Believing in the
impossible sets one up to look foolish often, both in life
and ultimately in death. It's the lesson life teaches us.
It's proved to me here daily.
I'm not coming
back Darlene. I guess that your God isn't resourceful enough
to save me, the child that He loves so much.